sick of it all

I keep going in and out of this depressed state being so frustrated that I just want all this to end and it isnt just the babies its the fact that now we cant keep our apartment because we dont have enough cash flow, we can't pay our bills and I just feel done with all this. Im so scard of all this. I mean we have had people offer to let us say there but its like oh you can bring your ferret (even though its pretty much my baby) and I dont want to part with him or have anyone else take care of him he gets me through my bed rest days. And my moms place is tiny but she would let us bring him along. I dont know anymore.