Somewhat of an update

Well hello my loyal followers. It has been forever once again, but I'm keeping up periodic check-ins. Madison is now a little over 2 1/2, and that's crazy. We've been trying play groups with her through EI and the first one didn't work out. That one was where we'd drop her off and leave. We are now trying one where I stay with her. She's been there twice now. The first visit didn't go so well but the last one was pretty good...I think it is because we got there before anyone else so she settled in before all the commotion.

EI pushing for preschool and I'm on board I'm just really nervous because she has issues adjusting and no one really knows about her. How to settle her down or just deal with her in general. She's pretty sensitive.

As for my life I'm in my second semester of college and there's only a few weeks left until summer vacation. I can't wait! There really wasn't a spring break seeing as I had work to do all through it. Trying to get this divorce started,over and done with ASAP. ANDD I think that's about it. I'm going to the gym almost daily. 5 - 6 days a week...that's just kind of what I do haha. I've lost 47lbs since starting in November and still working on a bunch more haha.




An updated photo of the babes and I <3

New Beginnings

Madison is too old and too wise for my liking. Such a cleaver girl. So smart it's ridiculous! She's walking way more than she is crawling. She is so silly and just the biggest love of my life and can be the biggest pain in my butt but a pain I would never change. She is just the sweetest and I wish I could have her innocence.

As for what I'm up to I'm still in school and determined to pass all my classes. I can't wait until next semester I'm already wanting to change my classes! I am having the hardest time with math..any suggestions? I'm still doing a little modeling...movie extra stuff when I have the time which I absolutely LOVE! I finally filed for divorce officially so now I'm just kind of waiting on his response.

Now that I think about IVF and everything "we" went through to have these child(ren) it saddens me how selfish someone can be. I still have these frozen embryos I'm supposed to be paying on but haven't, that I will most likely never use because all my eggs were fertilized with a man's sperm I'm no longer with. I'm not sure I'll ever get the chance to have another child without going through IVF I just wish I would've spared some eggs and froze them but who would've known I'd actually get the nerve up to kick him out of my life..

...On a happier not I have been the happiest I've been in a long time. So I leave you all with a little shot of us :)

This was either from August or September.

It's official

I am a college student! Just logged into my online classes for the first time. I'm taking one class twice a week, another on a Saturday and two online. I'm finally working towards something and I couldn't be more proud of myself :D

College Bound

Five years after high school I am now applied to college. My plan is to take the prerequisites for nursing & sonography that way I could do both. I've decided I'd like to be a NICU nurse, a nurse that works with high risk pregnancies and babies, or a nurse that works in the infertility office. Hmm I wonder where that idea came out..? I figure it's a field I know a good deal about having had first hand experience in all of the above. So I'm hoping to start taking a couple summer classes next month. I'm just waiting for my acceptance letter and to schedule the classes and take the placement tests...I'm so not looking forward to the math portion..I'm HORRIBLE at it anyone care to tutor me? I'm being serious!

*Shamless Plug* I'm adding more to So I'm Infertile please those of you who are infertile please join and lets make it a happy place to be!