6 Days after...

Provera my period showed up. Of course I bought a test with hopes at seeing a double line. I took it and it was obviously negative then the next day my period was here, ugh WASTE of money. So I guess this is it. After my period the ring goes in and there is now a 0% chance of me convcieving on my own. We are starting the gym again this week and I suppose I will focus on losing some weight and trying to be as healthy as possible. It would be great if the next time I go into the RE's office to a transfer I'd be at a healthier weight and happier all around. I guess that could be my goal. I would LOVE to lose 80lbs.

GYN

Well I had my appointment yesterday. She told me to keep taking Metformin to help with the PCOS and to avoid fatty and sugary foods, easier said than done. Oh and I'm severely overweight...almost morbidly obese actually. I weigh more now than I ever did even more so than when I was pregnant. That's like a punch in the face right there...PCOS if not treated early can make you become overweight because of the insulin resistance. Your body doesn't use the sugar it builds up as fat. Maybe if I can just cut back on what I eat and get to the gym for a few this would all work in my favor. I've never exercised while on Metformin so I'm sure it will work its magic a lot sooner with exercise. Oh and the blood pregnancy test...negative.

There hasn't been too much going on in the life of Madison, the family and I. But I have been busy with life so I apologize for not posting in a bit. Madison is almost 12 pounds if not 12 right now. She is smiling more and more each day and the talking is just adorable. Since being in the NICU for all the time and being set on one side the whole time pretty much she has been favoring one side more than the other. This has been since coming home but I never thought to mention it. ANYWAY tomorrow we have Early intervention bringing by an occupational therapist, I believe to check her out and see what her recommendations would be. To me she is moving her head more and more to the right on her back which is what we are trying to get at. Madison is an odd one...when holding her up right or if she is on her belly she moves her head both ways, its just on her back that she does the whole "I'm not moving my head that way," thing. That's where we are right now. We ended of finally changing to a difference pediatrician. Our medically insurance finally ended and we are now waiting to hear from COBRA since I sent back the paperwork. I had to spend $40 the other day to get my husband antibiotics when it otherwise would have been $7.00. I have a refill coming up for my pills and I'm scared to find out how much it'll cost. I'm no longer getting severance pay anymore and I've moved onto unemployment. Which brings on a lot of other trouble. They are trying to send me to job fairs and seminars and well HELLO I cannot out I'm the sole care taker of my child and she is still considered "disabled," I don't think they GET that. Doctor's note here I come.