I really feel like im at my breaking point right now. My parents were here my husbands mom and everyone came over also and I just feel like screaming my head off. Everything is getting to me and I dont know if I can take it. I feel my blood pressure going up and up. They are all like oh I feel so bad for her well I feel bad for me too. But what can I do? just lay around like everyday.
Another thing too is that my husband already a couple times this week went out with his friend for a couple hours then comes back home with him and is with him for like 5 hours then comes back to me and says oh do you need something I say no and he goes back out there by himself and plays games for the rest of the night. I feel so alone and like crying and i just feel like I should be away from everyone. maybe the hospital would be a better place for me that way im nobody's burden. I feel so hopeless and knowing my cervix gets shorter with every week knowing these babies could come anytime that I have no control of this and bedrest doesn't seem to be doing shit I'm so lost and looking for hope but everytime I get some hope its thrown away as soon as the bad news rears its ugly head. help me!
No comments:
Post a Comment